Here I go AGAIN...

Humm, what is going on in my world? Well I am starting the year 2009 with test's. Yes that is correct, I really do not want to but I have to. This Wednesday March 4, 2009 I will have two tests one a EGD and the other a colonoscopy. I really wish I could pass this onto someone else like we do playing hot potatoe (ha,ha). Just keep me in your prayers and I will be fine.

Who said it would be easy?

Living one day to the next, one moment at a time. When I breathe in I feel blessed because that means God still needs to work through me. There is not a day go by that I don't know I have a purpose to survive life. Surviving through the most diffucult times is always amazing to me. How did I get this far? Where did my family go? I feel like half my body has been taken away and replaced with uncertainties. Then when I am in the vally deeper than I ever thought I can feel the Master pulling me up out of the pit. Without God I am nothing, with Him I can do all things. I am so thankful God loves me even when I don't feel like loving back. One day I will walk on the shore of Heaven I will hold my little boys hand, my dad, my mom, my brother and my grandmother as we shout together I am safe at home.