The rain keeps coming!!!!!

Rain reminds me of tears. The tears of a mother, father, sister and brother who go through this life that has heart-ache too often. Somedays the tears just want stop and so I was thinking Jesus how many tears must You shed before we all wake up and see that this world will not last forever. We are only one heart beat away from seeing Jesus face to face. My hope is that everyone will want to serve God in a mighty way, with your time and talents. I hope you find the time and purpose of what God is leading you to do.

Pedal

I thought this is so fitting for our lives.

The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD.
Psalm 37:23

An unknown author once described his journey of giving God control of his life as a tandem bike ride with Christ in the front. He said, "When I had control, I knew the way. It was rather boring, but predictable. But when He took the lead, He knew delightful long trails up mountains, and through rocky places at breakneck speeds; it was all I could do to hang on!! Even though it looked like madness, He said, "Pedal!" I was worried and anxious and asked, "Where are You taking me?" He laughed and didn't answer, and I started to learn to trust. And I'm beginning to enjoy the cool breeze on my face with my delightful constant companion, Christ. And when I'm sure I just can't do anymore, He just smiles and says..."Pedal."

Though we may fear and doubt where God is taking us, when we give Him control, our life will never be the same. We'll begin to find adventure in the midst of adversity, and peace during times of pain. All we have to do is let Him steer our life while we simply pedal.

Give your life to God; He can do more with it than you can!
Dwight L. Moody

A Part Of My Body

Today has been the test of time. How can a mother survive the death of a child? I can only say God is my strength. Our lives are tested to see if we prove to be who we say we are. Did I pass the test? God do you think I can make it to do what ever it is you want me to? I have so many questions and very little answeres. I do know this I love God and I am trusting that He holds each of us in the palm of his hands. I watched Farrah's story the other night. Friends I will tell you this I have watched two of my loved ones die a horrible death from colon cancer and it is an eye opener for you to at least see behind the scenes of a colon cancer patient. Is it fair that you watched this and if you thought in horror how can a person be videoed with this? Many people we know are fighting cancer. The sad news is this, our cancer is not researched enough nor is there any current treatment to at least give them more than a year or two to live. I want us to remember that cancer is real, it hurts so much that you cannot understand unless you have had to sit by there bed and watch them suffer.
Our Daniel no longer suffers, he is safe at home with Jesus.

Mother's Day

Our family shared a day of reflection yesterday. As most of you know this was my first Mother's Day without Daniel, also decoration where he is buried was yesterday. We went to the cementary and placed our flowers. The greatest surprise awaited us as we noticed a flower arrangment on his grave. It had his picture in a glass waterglobe that is just beautiful.
As we arrived back at home Donald and Ray cooked me a wonderful lunch. We had meatloaf, mashed potatoes, corn on the cob, fried green tomatoes my favorite and bread.
Then Ray pulled out his card for me, this made my day because Ray picked out the card all by himself and this is what it said:
Having You For A Mom Is A Beautiful Thing
I've always known I could trust you, that you cared about me, and if I truly needed to confide in you, I could. Just knowing that has made a wonderful difference in my life. More than you probably know.
Now that is profound coming from a wonderful son that I have. I just love him so much and as I looked at him yesterday I noticed how much he really does look like me. I thank God for every moment I have with him and I remember the moment I gave birth to him as he cried out.
We spent the rest of the day just laying around and then we went back to the cementary again. There are sweet memories I have of Daniel and I will always carry them with me.
I thank God for my family, for my mom and dad.

Brown Eyed Son

Brown Eyed Son
I will never forget the moment I gave birth to you,
Your little brown eyes gazing up at who?
Your tiny fingers grasp mine as if to say mama I know I am your sunshine.
I watched you grow from a baby to a boy, full of mischief, along with a lot of joy.
The surprises you gave to your dad and I will never be forgotten, for you were very rotten.
Those big brown eyes saved your hide many times, from a paddle on your backside.
You grew to be a fine young man, cancer had to come by and ruin our plans.
Your courage and strength beamed above all pain, it would have driven anyone else insane.
You held fast to God’s Holy words, always looking upwards.
Now you can run, eat, fish, hunt, but most of all you are in a Heavenly place, where only grace matters.
I know you are looking down on us, with much fondness. Our lives have been changed here on earth, since the day of your new birth.
We know Jesus holds you in the palm of His hands, just as the clouds expand.
Oh What Glory your brown eyes must behold, just as you entered the threshold.
Our love for you Daniel will never be forgotten, for you are our little boy with a lot of action.
Never a dull moment with you, for you are the glue, you hold us together with a needle and thread.
You are only a heartbeat away, one day we will hold each other again.
In Loving Memory of Daniel Ray Bickerstaff by Mom…

My little Daniel

A million times i've needed you
a million times i've cried
if love could have save you
you never would have died
things we feel most deeply
are the hardest things to say
my dearest one, i love you
in a very special way
if i could have one lifetime wish
one dream that would come true,
i'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.