One Moment at a Time...

I had my test done this past Thursday, all is well and there is no cancer. Praise God!!!!
Donald and I traveled to Tennessee this past week-end. We had a good time seeing family and enjoying the sites. Last year when we made the trip Daniel was with us we miss him so much. My uncle who has altizmers keep asking what happened to Daniel and where he was. I think we handled it very well. When I walked into my aunt Lula Mae's house and saw her lift chair I thought of Daniel. That is where is slept the last time we were there. So many wonderful memories began to flood my mind as I thought of how Daniel loved his great aunts and uncle. Today has been a hard day for me, I have no control over my emotions today. A dear friend Anna came by today, she is such a wonderful person to cry with and share my feelings with. I am reading the book of Job again, it seems to help me to know that someone else has made it through this world when all else fail. Well this is my blog for now.
Pennie

Big Day

Today is my big day to learn just what it is the doctor has found. Am I nervous? Yes I am.... I have been praying for all things to be fine with my body. I know God is in charge!!!!
Pennie

How Can Life Go On Without Our Son Daniel?

Our world became very disrupted June 2005 when we learned our 19 year old son had stage three colon cancer. A journey began with each new day taking twists and turns we did not know what to expect. Our family history of colon cancer is very strong, my dad passed away at the age of 55 of with colon cancer. My mom passed away at 55 with breast & liver cancer. I am a carrier of (FAP) Familial Adenomatous Polyposis, a genetic disorder and had colon cancer in 1998. I have one missing link in my DNA that has caused our family to have colon cancer. My dad was a carrier, it was passed on to me and my younger brother Lamar who passed away July 13, 2007 at the age of 39 with colon cancer, and in turn I passed it on to my son Daniel. The thought of me giving my son cancer has been a torment to me, I know that I did not intentionally give this to him. I feel like I have fallen off a cliff, and a huge bolder has landed on top of me, I cannot move to save our son. We fought so hard to keep Daniel alive, we did every treatment possible, we prayed every minute of the day, God had a reason for taking our son. I am holding onto Jesus, because if I let go I will fall in the pit of despair, more than I am now. Daniel was the greatest young man you would ever meet. He never complained about how hard his journey was. We now know Daniel was holding on for us, because he knew our lives without him would be so lost. I am sometimes angry because life is not fair, sad because I know someone else is going through what we are, hurt because I feel like the world should stop spinning just as mine has, and thankful because Daniel is now home with our The Father.
Pennie

Prayers Needed!!!

Hello,
For those of you who do not know me, I am a colon cancer survivor of 10 years. I just went for my annual checkup this past Monday. The doctor removed one polyp and he found something else, it could be a lesion or some type of growth. I will go this coming Thursday July 24, 2008 for out-patient surgery. The doctor will biopsy the growth. Pray this is not anything serious, I am trusting in God to take care of me.
Thanks,
Pennie