Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Thanksgiving Eve

Here I sit Oh Lord depending on YOU to help me through another Thanksgiving. Memories fill my mind of how we all used to gather around the table to enjoy each other. To catch up on all of our lives and to reminisce of the days past. Mama sure could cook the best chicken and dressing I ever put in my mouth. She had a way in the kitchen of making it taste just right. I miss daddy working out in his shop on cars and trucks. I miss chasing the chickens with my little brother Lamar. I miss Daniel and all of his funny jokes he would pull on special occasions. I miss hearing him tell me how good the house smelled while cooking for our Thanksgiving Feast.

Some people think that Thanksgiving is all about the food. I think of it as a time to gather with family to make beautiful memories. I sure do cherish all my memories. Please make beautiful memories tomorrow and get out the video recorder and enjoy being on the screen in years to come. I am so thankful that we have videos of our sweet son's together. Yes, Yes I know no one likes to be on camera but please leave that one very important movie so your family will be able to go back and hear your voice.

Happy Thanksgiving
Donald & Pennie Bickerstaff

 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Guilty....

As I was bringing down Christmas decorations I pass by our family photos on the wall of the stair case. I stopped and felt a tear drop down my face. This is the first Christmas since Daniel's passing that I am actually enjoying trimming the tree. Six long years and I feel guilty about being happy. I told Daniel, mom, dad and Lamar that I still miss them and love them very much. The journey we families travel through grief is not just the passing but now and the future. Each day our mind has the same thought what would it be like with you here today? Please pray for all of us during Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years along with all the other anniversaries.

Thank You,
Pennie Bickerstaff & Family

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Another Birthday Without You...

I never dreamed you would not be here for my 49th birthday. I sure do miss you and my heart hurts so much. Each day is a new journey that I must remind myself to breath. I am not healed from your passing I am simply a mother on the long journey of skipping rocks to stay above the water. I wish I could hold you one more time, kiss you and laugh with you. I know you are having a great time in Heaven but I miss you so much. I thank God for all the time He gave you to me, dad and Ray. I look up at the stars at night and I search for that special star that shines the brightest. You will never be forgotten as long as I have breath here on earth. I will share your story and memory with anyone who will stop to listen.
 I LOVE YOU,
MOM